Feeling

I'm feeling depressed. I don't know why. I don't feel like myself. I smile and pretend when I speak to others, but I feel this heavy sadness over me that I can't get to leave. It consumes me at night keeping sleep at bay. It tears at me during the day while I'm trying to keep the happy side to everyone.

Maybe I'm losing my mind. Maybe I'm mental.

I suppose questioning ones sanity is a check point that says you are still sane. But usually this check point comes after feeling a certain way. I don't seem to be able to look at myself from the outside until after I've gone through feeling really terrible.

I just wish the feeling of wanting to disappear would go away. I find myself all to often lately wishing I could just fade into the back ground and everyone would forget about me. That I could just fall alseep and dream forever.

Comments:

Posted by H.W. on 8/9/2006 7:07:56 AM

I love you Woody and you're in my thoughts and prayers.

~Heather